|noplastictrees (jacks_sickness) wrote,|
@ 2008-07-02 08:23:00
|Current music:||Spike Jones- Hawaiian War Chant|
Huge ol Update
Okay so Brian and I broke up and I think its funny that Mercedes wrote about it before me. I've actually been keeping it on the downlow b/c well its not really a pleaseant thing to disscuss for me b/c I still love Brian there was just something (idk what) miss in our relationship that I needed. Everyone is saying I'm selfish or that I was playing mind games with him. I've always been upfront with him about everything I do. So ya I flirt thats how I naturally interact with people it doesn't mean I'm attracted to them or anything its just how I feel comfortable talking to some people. Now of course I'm not like that when I'm speaking to my elders thats a November Golf right there. And as for being selfish, well don't I have a right to be happy too? And wouldn't it have been unfair to Brian to remain in a relationship with him if I was unhappy? I don't know how things will be when I come home. Whether or my feelings will return or if I'll decide that we really were better off as friends.
Right now though I need to be concentrating on my career and not a relationship. I mean there is so much going on right now in my life that a relationship is really the last thing I need to be worried about.
The vet mos didn't work out for me so I'm reclassing and since my unit is a medical unit I'll just be getting another medical mos so now I don't have to worry about being a truck driver or something terrible like that. Oh and I really hope I don't become a combat medic b/c one that training takes a year and 10 months to complete and two those are the guys that are getting their legs blown off. (side note: I've seen about 30 or some odd people now with either one or both legs blown off and chunks of flesh missing from them) depressing...
I'm hoping for either Dental or Food Inspection. I'd like to do Mental Health but once again it a long training course and I'm ready to get back to Heidi.
Hopefully after I get my orders I'll be able to take my leave and go home for about 10 days or so. I'm really hoping for that. I'm also hoping that I'll phase soon so I can go off post and see the sights as well as be promoted which means more money and I can stop being a fuzzy little private and actually have some rank. I'm shooting for captain before I leave the service but I'll have to work extra hard for that.
Well this is getting really long and I still have a lot of other things to do. So...